FFFFFFFF

I hate when people say stupid shit things like "you just need learn how to deal with you emotions". I need to learn to ignore all feelings completely. i don't want to know how to like shit the "right way". i want bottle everything up and bury it. i want to turn off all emotions. i want to be a goddamn robot. i hate Rochester and everyone in it. i hate my co-workers and all the lame 30 somethings who will hit on anyone that looks at them twice, instead of waiting to meet someone they actually like. everyone makes me sick.

Fucked as Fuck for Fuck.
and i swear i hate you too. drawing lines? i'm still mad about that.

Fuck Holidays

I haven't felt like this in so long. I'm confused as shit, I'm angry, I'm hurt. Ugh i hate saying I'm hurt, but shit. This hurts.

all i want for breakfast is cocaine

where to begin?

am i doomed to be stuck like this forever? honestly that's the only way i feel like i can describe it. stuck. im stuck. im always going to be stuck. stuck with myself. forever.